Friday, July 26, 2013

The Drowsy Chaperone: Reflection


With the production finished and my internship over, I have had the time to reflect on my time spent as stage manager of a community theatre.  There were unexpected delights as well as cringe worthy moments.  There were brief moments of satisfaction as well as those of utter despair.  The one thing I can say with certainty, this was not what I expected.

From the first day meeting everyone, it was difficult to know my place.  Was I here to add opinions that would help shape the production, or would I be getting coffee and reminding actors of what days we meet?  I had high hopes for the impact I could make, but low confidence in the opportunities to do so.  After having watched the first rehearsal I was told I would be the stage manager.  My first thought was, “I’m going to have to Google that to see where my responsibilities begin and end”.  Having a general idea as to what this would entail I was worried that my voice would not be heard on ways I believed the production could be bettered.

As the weeks began to build, so did my confidence in my voice as an important part of this production.  I began to give notes and suggestions as to what worked and did not while viewing our rehearsals.  This is where the first major obstacle arose.  Not knowing my specific duties was brain-racking enough, but not understanding the director’s method was even more so.  This is not to say he was “wrong” in his directing style, it was just hard to see how we were going to be ready for opening night.

After a few more weeks, the technical side of things began to take shape.  Lights and sound were set and a week before our first show, we had tech rehearsal as well as our first time running through the entirety of the musical, oh and not to mention the first time we added in the orchestra.  The addition of all these things at once created a cascade of problems that needed to be corrected quickly (some never did).  As I began calling shows and making errors that would need to be corrected for the next show, I began to appreciate all the hard work so many people had put into making this production come alive.

The play of course went off with only minor blips and was enjoyable to work on and watch as well, but during the entire experience I did realize one thing.  I do not want to be a stage manager.  Getting the experience of working on the technical side of things gave me a deeper appreciation of the time and effort that is put into making a performance work seamlessly.  This was wonderful to experience and I am sure to use this knowledge as I continue to grow, but this is not the side of things I want to work on as a career.  I enjoyed making notes, reviewing the play, reading and rereading it until it felt like mine.  I loved talking to the actors, making suggestions on what to try.  I loved seeing what I had brought to the production come out through the actor’s performance.  This is the side of theatre I love.  This is what I want to do with the rest of my life.  This internship was wonderful in that it gave me actual experience working on a performance, but more than that, it showed me the love I have for the stage.

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